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Lost in translation

I am back. I have missed making my weekly posts and getting things down on “paper”. In my last post I talked about making a big move and switching jobs. It has been about 2 months and things are not slowing down. I got lost in the transition of things. I got busy trying to find community in a new city. I got stuck as I got overwhelmed with the change. But I am back.

I plan to get some good writing out as well as my weekly prompts back in full swing.

So until next time…

Somebody to Love

Prompt: Write about someone  you love.

There is a little girl, almost three, that stole my heart the moment I laid eyes on her. She stands about 38 inches tall with strawberry curls for days and big blues to match. She is beautiful inside and out. I cannot look at her and not say a huge thank you to the good Lord above for putting her in my life. She is an angel straight from Him.                               I wholeheartedly believe that. She will change the world. If not only for those that she comes into contact with. My world has been wrecked, in all the good ways, because of her. I have never experienced so much love and joy for a person in my life. She makes me laugh when I want to cry. She makes me forget about all the crap that life can bring. She brings me out of the darkness. Her laugh is contagious. Her sense of adventure excites me. Her presences brings healing. I am so proud of the person she is and will continue to grow and be.

I could write so much more, but I think you get the point. Averie is so much more than words. She is the love of my life.

 

 

Until next time….

 

 

Less is more

Prompt this week: Five things to do less often?

  1. Worry less. When I take time to be in the moment and take in all that comes with that I have more time to be present in the relationships I am in. Not worrying about what may be or could be, but what is. This is usually better said than done for me, but hey I will keep trying!
  2. Put expectations on myself. This is similar to worry, but also allows me to also not beat myself up for little things. Or big things. We make mistakes, learn from them, and move on. Give a little grace.
  3. Work less. I want to do things I am passionate about, like travel and build relationships. I want to spend less time in an office and more time building relationships and seeing the world!
  4. Spend less. Sometimes I spend money, not usually a lot but money that I could save on things I do not need. It is my outlet of stress sometimes. I’m pretty frugal most of the time, so if I think I have found a good deal, I gotta snag it.
  5. Hold in my emotions/feelings. At times I can be a ticking time bomb. So working on letting things go, talking out stories I am telling myself, and putting up boundaries and making them known. I also have to remember to do things to reduce stress!

What are five things you should do less often?

Until next time….

Leap of Faith

No prompt this week. Just me. This has been no ordinary week. This week has been a game changer! This is a week that God has flipped me on my head and pushed me to take a leap of faith. Let me try to get this what seems like a jumbled mess out. 🙂

Monday afternoon, I get a phone call from one of my friends offering me a position at his church. This is completely out of the blue. We had not talked about the church in awhile and I had no idea there was a position available. I also was getting comfortable (first sign something was going to change) with my current job and where my summer was taking off to. So when he offered me the job, I was kind of speechless. I didn’t know what to think or what to say, expect I will pray about it.

All night, I wrestled with what God was placing on my heart. I am an internal processor so I just can’t shut it down. I was up until 2:30 am when the exhaustion took over and back up at 6:30 am to go to work. It started all over again!

Over the next day and a half I spoke with my parents, mentors/friends, and my boss. I had not said the words yet, out loud, but my heart knew what the answer was. God was calling me to go. It was my turn to decide if I was going to be obedient. As I sat with my boss and was transparent with her to what was going on and my feelings; she was supportive. She repeated back what she thought I was saying, and part of that was I was moving to start ministry work somewhere else. It was then that a internal struggle hit, but then a peace. Yes, that was what I was saying.

I accepted the call, made the leap. I have no clue where this journey will take me other than 2 hours south of where I currently live. God is doing some amazing things at the church and the city I will be moving to. I cannot wait to be a vessel for Him to use in that space. This journey of self-discovery and happiness just got a little wilder. So hang on, the best has yet to come!

Until next time….

Memory

Prompt this week: Share a childhood memory.

When looking back on my childhood there are so many memories that rush to the forefront. Some of them good and some of them not so good, but memories none the less. They make us who we are today.

Of all the memories, this one I actually was thinking about this morning on my drive to work. It cracks me up. Hopefully you get a kick out of it too.

I was probably 8 or 9 years old and some friends from down the street were over at my house, playing. We were in the backyard and someone must have mentioned “smoking grass”. I had watched my dad roll cigarettes (yes, actual cigarettes) may times so I thought this should be easy. We snuck one of my dad’s lighters out of the house and the closes thing to rolling papers we thought to use was toilet paper. Yeah, toilet paper.

My friends and I were at the far corner of our yard and they had gotten grass clippings from our yard to put into the toilet paper. We then rolled the grass in the toilet paper and  made a makeshift “joint” and began to “smoke” it. The toilet paper caught fire, the grass clippings just fell out. We thought we were cool, but we were just curious kids trying to reenact what we had seen on tv or something. We realized pretty quick that we did not think it was any fun so we moved on to more fun games and adventures.

This memory from my childhood cracks me up, but also makes me aware of how much children are watching and taking in. It is crazy!

What is a memory that you have from your childhood?

Until next time….

You Say

A song I heard this weekend that just gets it….

Lauren Daigle – You Say

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just a song of every high and every low
Remind me once again just who I am because I need to know

You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am week
And you say I am helped when I am falling short
And when I don’t belong, Lord you say I am yours
And I believe, oh I believe what you say of me
Oh I believe

The only thing that matters now is everything you say of me
Cuz in you I find my worth in you I find my identity

You say I am loved when I cant feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am week
And you say I am helped when I am falling short
And when I don’t belong, Lord, you say I am yours
And I believe, oh I believe what you say of me
Oh I believe

Taking all I have now I’m laying at your feet
Cuz you have every failure, God, and you have every victory

You say I am loved when I cant feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am week
And you say I am helped when I am falling short
And when I don’t belong, Lord you say I am yours
And I believe, oh I believe what you say of me
Oh I believe

And I believe, oh I believe what you say of me
Oh I believe

Sunshine

Prompt this week: What was the best thing that happened this week?

In reflection over the last week, there have been many things I would consider great. I am so thankful for time with my family. I am beyond blessed to have a risen King, which really is the best thing all week. The weather however, has been a much needed extra for me. We have had warm (70s-80s) and sunny days for most of the week. As you have read in my other posts, the weather can play a significant role in my attitude. It has been so nice to sit outside and just soak up the warm spring air. To see flowers, grass, and trees beginning  to bloom. To see my skin starting to darken in the sun.

I am just in love with this warm weather. It could be because this seemed to be a rough season for my depression and taking a lot of time to snap out of it. I am so grateful for the sunshine and will take it in as much as I can.

What has been the best thing that happened this week for you?

Until next time….